Live, laugh and Love..

LIFE is a greatest gift we had. Thank you LORD, thanks to my parents.

I was 19 years old, when I gave birth to my son, then followed by my eldest daughter after 11 months , and another year after, my younger daughter comes. MY BLESSINGS. But for my parents, some relatives and friends, having 3 children with no marriage, is a big sin. They hated me and even avoided to have conducts with me. It takes years for them to accept my situation.

At my young age, having 3 children, not married is a hard life. Living with my in- laws place was a burden. I felt like a bird in a cage, a prisoner and even like a robot. They all decided everything in our life . I had to worked hard in them for my children. It was a sacrifce. There were times that I want to give up. Just leave my children and go back to my parents. I am missing the smiles on my face. I am missing my families and friends.

I WANT TO LIVE MORE FOR MY CHILDREN

One day, when I brought my son to school, I dropped by to the next building . There were some vocational courses offered to mothers like me, who are waiting for their children after their class. I inquired about it and studied manicure and pedicure.

After a week, I am already earning money doing home services. I am again exposed to people around with this work. Till one of my costumer, convinced me to be an Avon distributor. Because of my friendly attitude and good sales talk, I was awarded to become an Avon Supervisor.

While I am selling Avon products, and doing some home services of manicure and pedicure, I was encouraged by another costumer to become a tupperware product dealer. Our life started to have a little changes. We, specially my children can wore clothes, shoes and other thing of our own choices and best of all, we can go out whenever we are free and eat what we want.

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The smiles I am missing turns to LAUGHTER.

Those days we LIVED with LAUGHTER does not last long. The father of my children finished his criminology course and become a policeman. We had built a small house besides my in-laws place, bought a used car, children are transferred to a private school and we had already 2 maids to look after our children and our home while we are both out and working. I thought it will be a forever ending life, but it is not. He married a young woman whom he dates and got pregnant. Reason that I was kicked out of our house. That pain is killing me. And the only way to ease that pain is go away. I go worked abroad and sacrificed to be away to my children .

While working hard abroad, I grab the chance to study during my day offs. Those hardship was rewarded. I have used my skills of basic computer in a company where I was promoted the be an Assistant Manager .

Despite of those success in my life, I felt I am missing something. 17 years working abroad and going home a month yearly, is not that much exciting anymore. The more I am far with my children, the more they are like strangers to me. I was not there on some of the special occasions and events in their life like, birthdays, graduations and even their wedding days. They got their own families and that makes us little time to be together every time I am on my vacations. Therefore, I almost stayed in my mothers place who lived alone. She knows and felt that, I am lonely. There are many times that, I am missing someone to be with me. A listener to my stories, someone who will laugh to my jokes, a shoulder to lean on when I am down and sick. I am missing flowers from a man. I am missing to care and be cared, love and be loved.